A Journey to Find Me

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

One wish....

Is it possible to have only one wish?

I started the thought process for this blog by trying to pinpoint my one wish. The one thing that I'd wish for over anything else. And maybe I'm just extremely selfish or indecisive but I can't whittle down the many things that I would wish for. Is that weird? I want so much or so many different things that granting one wish may bring fulfillment to one area but wouldn't do a darn thing for the other areas of my life. Maybe I'm high maintenance....

Isn't it funny how you can think you want something, until you actually get it. And after you get it, you realize that it isn't the 'fun in a can' u thought it would be. I guess I'm experiencing that - somewhat.

Ya know what I like in people....honesty! Oh and a nice smell, but more than that honesty. It doesn't matter what you're honest about, just be honest for goodness sake. Quit hiding behind thinly veiled lies and simple omissions. They only last for so long. I have friends and acquaintances who are not even familiar with their own truth. Wouldn't know it if it hit them upside the head, but they are quick to point out falsehoods in my life...how funny!
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Ok, enough random stuff. Somethings just need to be said - now I can move on.

I'm still being harassed at work. When will people be able to see beyond my mind blowing sexiness. It's such a curse to be so fine. But hey, somebody's got to do it, might as well be me. The perpertrator is actually more annoying than anything. It's like they are attention starved or something and will do anything to get a lil bit - of attention that is.

Moving around the 15th of November. Should probably start packing sometime soon, but ugh I hate the thought of packing & moving. But I guess I gotta do what I gotta do. Anybody wanna help. I'll provide the pizza, beer, boxes & tape. You provide the labor. If that sounds good to you, gimme a call. I would put my number out here, but hey I already have one stalker.

I was sooo cute for church on Sunday. You should have seen me. It was like GQ had done a layout and I was the centerfold. I was so hot I wanted to rub myself, but since it was church I had to wait until I got home. I'll have to find a picture somewhere and post it. I see why people grab my butt and make lewd suggestive comments in my ear when no one else is around. For real ya'll, I was on another stratosphere fine. It was wonderful. When I get my hair plugs to cover up the part of my head that refuses to produce hair, its gon be on! I'm gon be too hot to handle & too cold to hold!

Speaking of cold, I'm freezing my nards off right now. It's freaking cold up here. My hands are too cold to scratch where I inevitably will itch. My nose is running and I'm gassy. I have so many problems....

Pray for me...

One wish....

Is it possible to have only one wish?

I started the thought process for this blog by trying to pinpoint my one wish. The one thing that I'd wish for over anything else. And maybe I'm just extremely selfish or indecisive but I can't whittle down the many things that I would wish for. Is that weird? I want so much or so many different things that granting one wish may bring fulfillment to one area but wouldn't do a darn thing for the other areas of my life. Maybe I'm high maintenance....

Isn't it funny how you can think you want something, until you actually get it. And after you get it, you realize that it isn't the 'fun in a can' u thought it would be. I guess I'm experiencing that - somewhat.

Ya know what I like in people....honesty! Oh and a nice smell, but more than that honesty. It doesn't matter what you're honest about, just be honest for goodness sake. Quit hiding behind thinly veiled lies and simple omissions. They only last for so long. I have friends and acquaintances who are not even familiar with their own truth. Wouldn't know it if it hit them upside the head, but they are quick to point out falsehoods in my life...how funny!
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Ok, enough random stuff. Somethings just need to be said - now I can move on.

I'm still being harassed at work. When will people be able to see beyond my mind blowing sexiness. It's such a curse to be so fine. But hey, somebody's got to do it, might as well be me. The perpertrator is actually more annoying than anything. It's like they are attention starved or something and will do anything to get a lil bit - of attention that is.

Moving around the 15th of November. Should probably start packing sometime soon, but ugh I hate the thought of packing & moving. But I guess I gotta do what I gotta do. Anybody wanna help. I'll provide the pizza, beer, boxes & tape. You provide the labor. If that sounds good to you, gimme a call. I would put my number out here, but hey I already have one stalker.

I was sooo cute for church on Sunday. You should have seen me. It was like GQ had done a layout and I was the centerfold. I was so hot I wanted to rub myself, but since it was church I had to wait until I got home. I'll have to find a picture somewhere and post it. I see why people grab my butt and make lewd suggestive comments in my ear when no one else is around. For real ya'll, I was on another stratosphere fine. It was wonderful. When I get my hair plugs to cover up the part of my head that refuses to produce hair, its gon be on! I'm gon be too hot to handle & too cold to hold!

Speaking of cold, I'm freezing my nards off right now. It's freaking cold up here. My hands are too cold to scratch where I inevitably will itch. My nose is running and I'm gassy. I have so many problems....

Pray for me...

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Poor Neglected Blog

I must repent. I must repent now and openly. I must repent for neglecting my blog for so long. It hasn't been a lack of activitiy or a lack of desire to blog, but just plain laziness that kept me from blogging. In my absence, I have found several new blogs that I like to read daily. And I must confess that I get a little peeved when they don't update daily. All the while I leave my own space over here gathering dust and cuck-a-bugs. How sad am I? I'm a bad blog daddy....

Let's see...what's new in my life....hmmmm. Oh, we've sold our house and bought another one. We should be closing on both within the next few weeks. Have I ever told you guys how much I hate moving? If not, please let me say I HATE MOVING! The whole deal. Packing, moving, unpacking. It is so unappealing, but the wife wants new space. And I want, well u know, so I'm giving her new space.

What else? Work still sucks, except there's this person who sexually harasses me. I used to think that I'd love to be harassed, but now that I'm on the receiving end of butt grabs and language that's not proper, it makes me sad. In the words of a really good friend "too bad she's a whore." There's not much more to say on that subject. I'm trying to avoid her until her feeling of lust passes. Who knew that working out 5 days a week would make strange women throw their coochies at you like you were the wide receiver of some football team?

I'm still trying to drop down to 200 lbs. I weighed earlier today and that scale said that I weighed 214 or 212, I can't really remember. But I can remember hugging the steel scale and kissing the little sliding thing at the top. I think it was inappropriate, but hey who cares. None of you told me that I'd lost some weight! Am I a whore now, a scale whore? How sad!

Oh, on the work scene, I was named the Associate of the Month during a meeting earlier today. It kinda makes me sad, because if I'm supposed to be a model employee and I spend like 2/3 of my day avoiding work then this place is in big trouble. I guess I'm a good faker. Let's hope I can keep it up!

Ok, I'm all blogged out for now...bbl. I promise.

No really this time I'm for real, I will be back.